348 of 620 (part 6)

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It started pouring cats and dogs. It felt like thorns being thrown on me. It hurt a lot but I couldn't stop. There was no place to stop. I started shivering I couldn't control. I couldn't see the road at all and didn't know what to do. And then she tried to stop the rain drops hitting my eyes directly but keeping her palm like a barrier on my forehead. I saw a small shop nearby and she started shouting stop stop stop. So I stopped my bike near that shop and we ran in there for shelter.

There were few others standing inside the shop - all looked like construction workers. I saw her face, she looked a little frightened. I went and stood close to her. She wiped my face with her dupatta and asked me if I felt ok then. I nodded my head. It was so cold and I kept shivering I didn't know what to do. I just moved a little closer to her. She was completely drenched but still her body heat comforted me but the second I moved near to her and touched her, she moved away and gave me one roast me alive stare which automatically made me to turn away from her but my thoughts were dwelling around her. I couldn't think of anyone or anything else except her. I wanted to hug her and kiss her. I wanted her to be mine forever. I turned towards her and said her that she looked beautiful. She laughed and said that I had a very bad taste. She always did that. She never took any of my words seriously. I still wonder whether she knew that I loved her or not. And I'm sure that she doesn't.

The rain almost stopped. It was just drizzling then. We started from that place in my bike. We still had more than 40 kms to cover. I was wet and the cool air hit me which made to shiver yet again. The traffic was starting to get intense and at one point when we were waiting for the signal to show green, 

Hater :  It is not that cold. Why are you shivering like this? Idiot. What will make you to stop shivering?

Me    : you know very well. It is your hug. 

Hater : You know it wouldn't take a second for me to hug you. But I feel nothing for/on you and this one second would make us both regret and guilty all through our lives. We can never be even as friends in the future.

I knew what she said was right and knew she was always very careful with me because she didn't want me to get hurt. I knew that is why she usually never expected or asked anything from me  but I just couldn't stand all those when she said me every time. I got angry and I never spoke a word after that. 

Hater : You know how hard it is to like someone but still hate them at the same time?

Me    : Nope

Hater  : listen. I don't hate you as you think. I like you but just as a good friend, a brother, a well wisher. You have been with me at many instants when I had no one else and I feel grateful for that but it is not love. I love someone else but he left me and I don't love you but you keep coming to me and I have my family the other side who don't even know what is happening in my life. Most of the time I wish and pray that it is/should be him when I'm with you. I never said all this and kept moving away from you because I thought you'll understand all this by yourself. I'm sorry. 

Reality hit me. It was hard to digest. I was silent. And then I felt like something very soft, soft like her lips and hot like her breath touched my left cheek. I turned immediately to look at her. She shouted "Are you mad, why are you turning and looking when you are riding a bike in the middle of the road. Want me to get killed? watch the road" and gave me one hit on my back.

Did it really happen? Did she kiss me or did she come close to me to tell something and my imagination did the rest because of the awesome weather and the amazing (shivering) cool ride? I didn't know then and I knew I will never know it ever...