Ed or Jake- Bella's confession

Hi all, I'm Isabella Marie "Bella" Swan. I have a confession to make.

I love nature, I love adventure. I have a small crowd of trusted friends and I respect them a lot. I'm not THAT good in expressing my emotions but my close ones feel the exact opposite. And I'm a magnet to accidents. Most of you know me very well but there is something I wish to tell you all. That is...
 

I love Jake. Yes, I mean Jacob Black. He is charming, Kind of beautiful and sexy too. He made my life complete. He closed the hole in my heart made my Ed. He is someone whom I always want around/near me. 

He saved my life, showed me what is life. He cared and understood me much more than anyone ever did to me. He is close to my family. And everyone around me and him approve us. He can offer me a human life. I can live life happily and grow old with him. . He is there for me ALWAYS. And YES he IS a better choice.

But I'm sure you'll feel confused now reading this because you all know I chose Ed over Jake.

True I did. Because it is not about who is the better choice but about who completes us and who fills out heart forever. Ed does that to me. Ed is matured. Though he is not very expressive he cares a lot for me in his own way. I feel love is not just about caring, sharing and understanding. Love includes infatuation, the little crush, lust, affection, anger, pity and mixture of it all. And Love is about staying together, wanting to stay and be there for each other, even after all these mixture of emotions/ feelings fade. 

Love is about feeling protected - the way Ed makes me feel every sec when he is around. A sense of comfort and calmness in my heart and a thought that nothing will go wrong when Ed is near me. Love is about trust - the way he trusted me that I would not suicide when he left me (It was just cliff diving I surely never wanted to suicide - believe me - Even if you don't Ed will because he knows me). Love is about respect one's dignity- Maybe my guy is old school but when he asked me to marry him when I pushed him for sex I loved him even more. And most of all Love is about sacrifice. The other day in the cave, Ed was ready to sacrifice us for MY well being. 

Jake could/ would have never done all this. Sometimes I Do feel that I'm selfish to have Jake near me always and I know my actions hurt him. But I Do love Jake a lottttt. I enjoy spending time with him and so does he with me.  He is very special FRIEND to me. 

BUT You can live once and you can love TRULY just once. And My true love for life is and will always be EDWARD CULLEN.

'I was/am unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him'

P.S. I belong to Team Jacob. But this is what every gal would feel if she is in Bella's position. (At-least I think so :p ) 
P.P.S. All the pictures are goggled images. I have no  right over any of it.