music n me - A strange bonding

There was a time I used to cry and make up excuses to avoid going to music class. I used to come back from school and just 10 minutes before my music class time, I used to sleep off knowing very well that my mom wouldn't wake up. And there were times I used to sit at the end in the music class and enjoy the sound of the rain outside. But those were just few memories. I was never inclined to music then though the whole world used to say that I was a good singer back then. I never felt it was a big deal when I did my kacheris in one of the biggest Mandapam and temples in Madurai. I didn't hate it but I never loved it too. All my thoughts were just on sports back then.

But when I left my home town and as days flew by, everything changed. I longed for those music classes. It made me feel special; it took me to a different world filled with only peace. And when I didn't have it, I missed it. I realized its worth. I wanted to start with it yet again but in vain. 

When we wanted something and when it is so close but when we don't get it, we long for it even more. And that would make us obsessed to it, filling our mind and thoughts. Music did that to me. I could not live even a second without my ipod. The worst day of my life was when my ipod broke. I couldn't do any other work at all. I needed music when I was eating, when I was sleeping, when I was happy or sad, studying or not. Music had been my best pal, my soul company for years and years and days without it made me feel lonely.

I could relate everything happening and happened in my life to songs. I could express myself better only with it. If it is day or night it is music with me all the time. My dream proposal had music, my dream guy was a singer and my best moments were made with songs. The instant happy mood switch is capable in me if music existed. I had difficulty in sleeping when it left me. It gave me a sort of pain what a break up gave people. And it ached more when people couldn't understand it.

And then it all changed. After 9 months of suffering, I got a new Ipod. It brought me back my life and soul. I felt alive. And this thing between music and me can be like the bond between 2 best buddies, between a sweetest couple, between a mother and her child and maybe much more.

Music and Me - the strangest bond - the unique couple