I'll never call it love - part 5

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Life felt empty. It felt good to have someone to care for me all the time. Though it was hardly for a month or 2 it felt good. And those words what he said when he said 'let us break up' made me think. I kept wondering what he meant by those words. What he expected from me. He also said that he proposed just because he had a bet with his friend and that he never felt anything for me. I hurt my ego really bad. I couldn't digest that. I never loved him, that was true but I never cheated. I was true to my words and actions always. But he was never so. I loathed peple who lied and cheated and he was an embodiment of it made of only lies. And then the hatred in me started growing.

The time when he emotionally blackmailed me telling that he had no money at all and some idiot stole his new mobile and he had to replace it and took my gold chain came back in front of me. Those times when he cried to me after he was drunk and scolded really bad, those times when he used cigarette buds to burn my hand when he was drunk, those time when I said I'll cut my hand every time he drunk and he asked me what I'll do if there is no place for new cuts in my hand. I wanted to know if that was all true, if all those incidents meant anything at all to him?

And then I realized that money from gold chain went for his drinking. That mobile was sold for his drinking and not stolen. In fact he had also stolen his roommate’s mobile and made money out of it to drink and was caught and thrown off from college hostel. He had to repay and thus took me chain. I realized how dumb I was. But then this realization never came immediately but a year later after so many other incidents.

There were no contacts between us and I never knew if he was dead or alive. And one fine day he called from some girl's number and asked me to check for 1st year's results. I did for him and he said thanks and kept the phone. I later came to know that the girl was his new girl friend. And I came to know even after a month later that that girl had 4 other boyfriends.

I moved away from that initial crowd of friends. To be precise they who initially said me that HE was a gem of a person, moved away from me for the very same reason that I was talking to him. Nobody had an idea that I had no contacts with him because nobody had the guts to come and ask me knowing me temper. 

Life went on and one more semester was over. I kept getting occasional rumours about him time to time but nothing more. I had a new crowd of friends who were extremely caring and friendly, who considered me as a baby, stayed beside me every second and took care of me like a princess. I was cherished by them and I got used to demanding for care and affection. They never left me for others and they never made me feel possessive even for a second. Life was heaven but it didn't last for long. Because HE came back in my life.